=)
I really felt things are back to normal.. more or less..
80%?
Think I had no qualms about certain things..
And yes he had no qualms to continue laughing at me...
But yes tt's how our friendship is.
And I'm glad.
=)
jiahui
10:18 PM
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over
Glad we talked.
Although I have no idea how tt happened, I'm glad we talked.
I yearned for back to normalcy. The hug was a "nothing has changed" gesture frm his part. So I have to stop worrying now given that the air is cleared...
N I think I should rest lots and stop making pple worry... Coz I think I've lost myself... Been too long and it din get better.
jiahui
6:38 PM
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end
If it can be ended and can be ended that way, it might be a relief for me instead.
jiahui
11:28 PM
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hangover
I notice sth... one of my hangover symptoms is.. I have trouble sleeping..
Not the first time that I"ll still wake up early after drinking a little more than usual...
anw, the session yesterday was somewhat awkward...
While they try to find out certain things about certain pple.. most of it was on my work related issues. Spoke to each of them individually (not arranged.. D and A go smoke, left XL; XL and D go toilet, left A; I broke down, need to calm down.. walk along ecp, D came along)
Now now.. I broke down eventually when I spoke to A. He laid the cards so clearly in front, forcing me to face my fears and my ambiguity that I just cun help but let the tears flow...
Work is already so frustrating... and it is my main frustration I say, given tt I face it more hours in a day or week. Then they went on to personal problems.. Tt's actually another scary part. Coz it was really a direct qn. So direct that now I have to handle the issue. tt person who posed the qn opened up a can of worms as I said last nite. n i have no idea what to say... Life is already confused enough and I have to untangle the mess and knots and whatsover..
Maybe there's really a strong awkwardness last nite which prompted that.. but I think the awkwardness was more of sth else.. or was it really a strong suggestion. Now I feel awkward. Though I said let's not be bothered about it...
jiahui
7:42 AM
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brur brur
I completed the report i wanted to complete but did not send the correct version to my email.. haha so could not send it to sup for vetting.. brur brur
I brought my shoebag, wanting to go gym, only to realise when i wanna go that the shoebag is empty.. brur brur..
hahahaha
Anw, I finally started on the 2nd task I wanted to complete last week.. I am going to complete my competency part this week! woohoo!
jiahui
11:24 PM
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typing out loud.. my tots.. very random
This report is so difficult to write. New structure + long time nv write + jialat guy = hard time.
I wanna lose wt leh... I gained the wt but not losing much.. ok I must motivate myself by saying I've at least lost tt little bit.. Damn wad should I eat then? I'm reducing my intake and trying to eat healthily while I can before eating with colleagues make me lose control again...
I still haven buy new footwear as I had planned ages ago..
Should I be nice and get sth relevant to tmr's theme of ship/pirate? Maybe I should heck..
I saw this top I like online yesterday.. So tempted to get leh.. how??
I need to clear my wardrobe... I think I need to throw out some clothes that I'm not wearing??
I need to start not wasting money and start wearing the limited dresses/skirts I have. Except that friends/family will be amazed when I do...
Seems like I wanna go for a wardrobe change.. but no money.. and I notice I like tops with nice flare flare type of sleeves....
feeling so bored leh... What can I do.. still have the stupid report to complete... die die must do today....
Need to motivate self to jog today rather than taking the nap that seem to have become a (bad) habit.
Oh n speaking of sleep.. I'm proud to say I've been quite good and trying to sleep latest 12pm... Might still be late for many but this is an improvement.. the effort to go sleep by 1130 for now is sth to applaud for and worth giving myself a pat on the back.
Daddy commented that my skin condition is no longer that good. He said itz no longer as smooth.. :( But I guess it is not really at itz worse.. There were worse times. At least now I manage to control the black heads hidden on my nose.. Just that the scars on my chin are still there.. I hope I will stop getting pimples there... :(
Ah well but i think coz of my better sleep pattern, my dark eye circles also slightly better.
jiahui
12:19 PM
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Call me Workaholic
I know this is a loong weekend. A good time to have a good break and fun..
But I must complete the following
- Assessment report
- Competency table for mdot
Time allows, will do the following
- Staff support framework outline
Looks not too many rite? =)
But trust me the must do 2 items alone will probably take up at least a total of 2 days alr...
jiahui
10:35 AM
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